Wednesday, November 10, 2010
I have officially determined that I have dropped a bra size. I believe this is a pretty incredible feat considering I was only a 34A. 32A fits when I tighten it to the max but now I have serious concerns that I will eventually be forced to wear sports bra's or simply go in the nude. Unfortunately, neither appeal to me.
I was doomed from birth. Being Asian almost guaranteed that I would have a short stature and of course, when I gain fat my boob size stays the same. What amazes me however is the fact that when I lose weight, I always somehow lose boob-age first before any other area on my body. I don't really have much to spare :( I already could be mistaken for a boy with my super push up's but soon I'm not going to have anything to work with at all!
Ok rant over.
I have one of those group interview's with Abercrombie today which I'm reallllly hoping is going to go well. I usually sound like a fumbling idiot when I'm asked question's that I'm not expecting :/ Anyway, I'm freaking out a little because I want to dress Abercrombie-ish which I know means wearing jeans. Tights, thigh-high socks and leggings are NOT going to cut it. I have with me the one pair of jeans from high school that is not only way too loose but is black which I hear is *taboo* in Abercrombie.
This means borrowing from my roommate. Her jeans are not as loose as the pair that I have but are still roomier than I'm comfortable with. I have serious leg-coverage issues if you guys couldn't tell. I feel best when my legs are naked because I think any layers on top of them make them look fatter. And yes, I know it is counterintuitive and doesn't make logical sense. I dunno, ANY kind of jeans just makes me feel so freaking fat. It makes me even more antsy about the thickness of my calves/thighs/hips/etc.
Arghh I know I'm going to be spending just about the whole interview thinking about how I look too fat to work there (all their employees are tall + skinny + gorgeous...). But I really need this job. I've got $13 in my bank account :/
Yesterday's fast went well (approximately 30 hours so far) and today I'm going to be doing:
-2 cups Trop50 Orange Juice (100 cal)
That's right. Today is a juice fast day :) Which I have never done before but am quite confident I will succeed in doing. I have to do whatever it takes to get rid of this weight and fat that's holding me down. This way I'll have 48+ hours of absolutely no solid foods and only 100 calories in liquid. Still debating whether I should dilute my juice or not hmmm.
I promise I won't be fasting tomorrow though haha. Absolutely can't risk it!
*K - GOOD LUCK!! How long are you going for? Don't let the binge-monster catch you!
*morbid.diathesis - LOL fasting queen! Omg I wish! One day I want to do a 10 day water fast :) One day...
Posted by not.quite.ana at 7:00 AM