It's so surreal. I still haven't completely grasped the fact that I have *actually* reached the double digit's.
I also thought I would be happier about it?
Oh don't get me wrong. I'm definitely proud of myself for finally getting here after what has been a very bumpy journey but... Never mind. I can't even explain it myself.
I just need to get to 95 now :D
Although of course I weighed in today at 100.0 lbs sigh. I'm a little disappointed but I'm more glad that the discrepancy is this small which means that yesterday couldn't have been a fluke!
Today is 100:
-1/2 medium cantaloupe
Total: 94 calories
So... Here's me >< I've taken the suggestion of *miss alisha to post a progress pic... It was super stressful trying to figure out which pose would make me look the least fat but I did my best :/ I wanted to share it here because you have all been amazingly encouraging and supportive, I don't think I could have reached this point otherwise :)
I feel really anxious and paranoid about showing a picture of myself so I'm going to take it down tonight, although in all honesty the biggest reason I can't bear to keep it on here is because it is seriously tearing me apart to see all that fat on my body. Ugh, this picture is ruining the "cleanliness" of this blog and I would rather save it in an obscure folder where I won't have to see it again until I'm skinnier!
P.S. Omg I didn't want to write this but PLEASE IGNORE my stomach/arm/thigh bulges, I know it looks terrible!!