Monday, November 15, 2010
104.6 lbs. I don't know how I managed to weigh exactly the same as my before-home weight but it probably has to do with the fact that I've just finished a 24 hour water fast. Today is 100 calories and to switch it up a bit I'm having:
-2 cups strawberries (97 cal)
SO ANGRY THAT I'M NOT 101 TODAY THOUGH!! My goal for next Monday is 100. I can do it >:( Besides, next Thursday is Thanksgiving = Death. Plus I'll be home again which also = Death.
My parents cook so much food and even when we try to foist all the leftovers onto our guests we still end up with a TON of food that I feel obligated to eat while I'm home. I really don't like wasting food :/
*BIG HUGS TO *Minus Human, *Kate, *liz, *K, and *Isobel!!!
*Minus Human - Thank you so much for your kind comment. Even though I know I eat because my body demands it I still feel frustrated when I can't control this one thing for myself. Your plan really is the smart way to do this, but even so I feel completely helpless when I don't see a decrease in my weight every day which I try to compensate by using more extreme tactics... I hope one day I can truly believe that I am not only beautiful but deserving.
*Isobel - It's so hard not to freak out when I can plainly see how I'm reversing all my hard work ;_; And don't apologize!! We all have responsibilities in the "real world" (lol). Everything is fine as long as you're ok :)
Posted by not.quite.ana at 9:36 AM