Wednesday, October 27, 2010
53 hours into the water fast. 103 lbs. Amazing. Now I'm just scared that this isn't actual weight that'll stay off when I start eating again. I'm going to be so devastated if I gain it all back the next day. Arghhh.
The urge to eat really is psychological. My stomach growled a couple times and I was a little lightheaded and dizzy when I got up too fast once but otherwise, I haven't felt fatigued or gotten the urge to just *eat*. However, it took me awhile to go to sleep even though I was exhausted and I didn't stay asleep for very long. I've woken up after only 6 hours of sleep when I normally would be passed out for around 10-12 hours, especially since I hadn't slept much the night before. I wonder why restricting and fasting affects me like this although I hear it's pretty common.
I'm starting to finally feel the effects of fasting though. I have absolutely no energy and even walking to the bathroom was a challenge. My body is also aching a little but it may be due to the fact that I'm in ketosis. Yay for fat burning :)
I'm considering breaking the fast at 60 hours if I continue to feel this weak because I have a 4 hour Organic Chemistry Lab at what would be 65 hours into the fast. I'm not sure if I would be able to keep up with the activity and it takes me 30 minutes to walk there. I really really *don't* want to faint or anything in this class because it's also the class where I had to be taken to the hospital for my "stress attack" or whatever. It would be so embarrassing if something happened again.
At the same time I would love it if I could complete 72 hours. Or longer. I guess it depends on how I feel later on. I suppose my next dilemma would be what I should eat to end the fast. I know a lot of people say fruits, vegetables and soups are good but I don't think I've been fasting long enough to have to be that gentle with my stomach do I? To be honest the only thing I've been craving to eat this entire time are these specialty fries that are sold on my block that are so damn good!! There's no nutritional information for them since it isn't a franchise but I'm pretty sure that it's at LEAST 500 calories. What do I dooo :(
Kate, Minus Human and Jane Doe thank you for commenting! I do have the # of an ob/gyn I can make an appointment with but I've been procrastinating on that because it would mean having to go home which equals massive amounts of food laying around that I won't be able to stop myself from binging on. I have thought about going on the pill but... This is kind of silly but I don't like taking pills/supplements/vitamins/medicines and all that jazz. I like to think that I'm perfectly healthy and that I don't need any of them haha. I know that's very faulty thinking though sigh.
I can tell that I've gotten a little "bonier" but when I look in the mirror I look so damn FAT. I don't know why it is. I very much hope I feel skinnier at my UGW.
Posted by not.quite.ana at 4:47 AM