Wednesday, December 1, 2010
This is a disaster.
I feel like the apocalypse has fallen right on my fat ass.
Yup. EXACTLY THE SAME.
How can this be?? How can I already be freaking plateauing??
I had 1 cup Fiber One Cereal (120 cal), 1 Amy's Bistro Burger (110 cal), a bread roll from Patsy's Pizzeria (~80? cal) and about one handful of Penne alla Vodka (~200??) for a total of around ~510 calories yesterday. I had thought at the time that while it wasn't a good intake it wasn't terrible either but I was apparently WRONG.
Today is December 1st and there are LESS THAN FOUR WEEKS LEFT. Omg ok I need to calm down, it's NOT time to freak out yet!
About the loss of my period, I think it *is* because of the weight loss after all according to what I've researched. The only part I'm not clear about is exactly WHEN and IF it'll be coming back? It's funny, I hate getting my period but now that I haven't had it for awhile I wish I could just get it so that I don't have to worry about it anymore! I'd like to at least have the option of conceiving my own kids in the future you know!
This is a little off topic but there is one question that I absolutely dread being asked when I meet a boy - "What do you do for fun?" It's sad, but this seriously stumps me. I usually pause and then blurt out something lame like "not study" LOL. Honestly, as of right now, "losing weight" is what I do "for fun". But of course I'll sound psycho if I say that!
You know those moments where something just *snaps* in your mind and you decide to do something that is probably impulsive and risky and not really worth it?
Well I've just had mine.
4 day / 96 hour fast.
Turns out I couldn't keep myself from freaking out haha...
I was looking at myself naked in the mirror as I often do. Even though my thighs weren't touching they were closer than they were before Thanksgiving. I had fat rolls hanging over my thong strap. My ass was bigger than I remembered it. My fat was squishing out of the sides of my bra.
All I could think was "Oh my God".
I simply have to stop eating. It's simple. No food for me!
During the last 72 hour water fast I thought I would go crazy if I went for even a minute longer. However, 72 hours isn't good enough anymore. I need to be stronger than that. It doesn't mean anything if I don't keep trying to aim higher instead of stagnating.
Still, I do understand that as far as water fasts go, 72 hours is highly likely to be my limit (at least psychologically). Thus, this time I will be incorporating diluted 100% juice. I'm going to fill one of my empty 1.5L water bottles with 2/3 Trop50 Orange Juice and the other 1/3 with water. These 200 calories will be all that I am allowed in a day.
My plan as of now is to go 48 hours pure water and the last 48 hours with the juice. Hopefully this will keep my energy up and I won't feel like lying in bed is all I'm up to doing.
I promise that on December 5th I will be reporting a successful completion of this 96 hour fast. I'm rather excited! I'm going to estimate a 1 lb per day loss so my goal is to be in the 90's again by then :) Yay!
*VictoriaCrimson - Yesss, the body is so weird! I hope you're right and that it's just out of whack for a bit, I don't want to get any health-related problems in the future because of it!
*liz - Amy's is my one true love <3 It's expensive, but if you want low cal low fat healthy organic vegetarian food then Amy's is the only way to go :)
*struggle2bethin - I love the burger patties, actually if you look on the website the Bistro Burger is one of the lowest calorie foods that they make! Amy's is expensive but I think it's worth it in the long run :) Hm, I personally like fish over meat but I think the lean versions of meat are perfectly fine! I suppose my "binge times" are usually later in the day but it might be because I'm rather nocturnal? I couldn't really say :/ And I hope I will too!!
*Kate - It's so weird to think that I may have "lower" amounts of fat that's preventing me from getting my period but I think you're right :0 Or at least I hope that's all it is!
*Mich - Aw thank you, but after getting to 99 the 103's just seem so obnoxiously high :/ Haha yes I know that if I did get my period anytime soon I'll be thinking "Why did I want it again??" XD
Posted by not.quite.ana at 11:56 AM