Saturday, December 18, 2010
Well... This is it.
It's not the end of my journey to attain a thinner, happier me.
I've simply "outgrown" this blog.
I was incredibly lonely. I wanted to be heard, to be related to and to relate to others. I didn't want to be alone. Above all, I was afraid to be overtaken by my fears, my faults and the imperfections that all seemed to grow day by day.
This blog was my outlet, a place to reveal the thoughts I would never dare to speak out loud to another human being.
But I'm in a different place now. I still want to be 95 lbs so so badly and I still don't have anyone I can voice all my true feelings to.
However, I'm not afraid anymore.
I haven't reached my UGW. In fact, I haven't achieved much in terms of weight loss. Most importantly, I haven't managed to grasp the happiness I keep expecting to pop up around the corner.
I'm ashamed and I'm disappointed but I'm not afraid.
I have never felt more honored than when I had my very first follower to the astonishing 74 of you now.
I'm not sure if I will be deleting this blog, putting it on private or simply leaving it be but I won't be posting here anymore.
Goodbye my loves.
Posted by not.quite.ana at 10:28 PM