Saturday, December 18, 2010



Well... This is it.

The End.

It's not the end of my journey to attain a thinner, happier me.

I've simply "outgrown" this blog.

I was incredibly lonely. I wanted to be heard, to be related to and to relate to others. I didn't want to be alone. Above all, I was afraid to be overtaken by my fears, my faults and the imperfections that all seemed to grow day by day.

This blog was my outlet, a place to reveal the thoughts I would never dare to speak out loud to another human being.

But I'm in a different place now. I still want to be 95 lbs so so badly and I still don't have anyone I can voice all my true feelings to.

However, I'm not afraid anymore.

I haven't reached my UGW. In fact, I haven't achieved much in terms of weight loss. Most importantly, I haven't managed to grasp the happiness I keep expecting to pop up around the corner.

I'm ashamed and I'm disappointed but I'm not afraid.

I have never felt more honored than when I had my very first follower to the astonishing 74 of you now.

Thank you.

Thank you.

Thank you.

I'm not sure if I will be deleting this blog, putting it on private or simply leaving it be but I won't be posting here anymore.

Goodbye my loves.

12 comments:

  1. i've been thinking about doing this as well. if you return, tell me what it was like. good luck love!! <3

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  2. I'll miss you..

    I've thought about it... But without Blogger, I wouldn't have anyone, really.

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  3. i'll miss you tons, you've been so sweet and supportive, thank you lovely. good luck <3

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  4. Good luck with everything :) I appreciate what impression you've had on me and this community. Pretty please, don't delete this, though- I would love to be able to go back and read through the posts when I need the inspiration. Love you ♥

    xo
    Victoria

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  5. I wish you well in all your future journeys. Remember that if you do need somewhere to be heard again - if you need some understanding - we are always here for you.

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  6. In some ways I'm very glad to hear you're going as I hope in my heart that you are trying to leave at least some of the eating disordered behaviour behind, but I will also miss reading your updates a lot.

    However, my selfish want to read a blog is more than trumped by your health needs.

    Please be safe and I hope you find that happiness you are searching for.

    Xx

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  7. ill miss you, certainly, but i hope you find what you are looking for.

    <3

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  8. We'll all miss you, but I'm SO PROUD OF YOU. Even if it's short, feel free to come back and let us know that you're happy, ok? 'Cause I think(know) you will be :) Good luck, prayers <3

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  9. i wish you every happiness. i will miss you so much.
    Love,
    tracy

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  10. I'll miss you. But if this is what's best for you, then you should do it. But please keep your blog up. And please remember the login so you can come back and visit whenever you need to. We'll always be here for you, waiting for that name to pop up in the Blog Roll.

    <3

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  11. I know. I understand. I love you x

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  12. I love you <3 I'll miss you.

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