Friday, December 3, 2010
Oh my goodness.
100.8 lbs and only 48 hours in for 3 lbs lost!
I'm ahead of schedule :D
I've been on top of my exercises these past couple days and I'm sore all over to prove it! My goal is to keep up with these exercises for every day of December:
-2 sets dumbbells
-100 right & left leg lifts
It's not a lot but the point here is consistency!
This is horrible of me but... I wanted to rip out all the food I saw in people's hands. My very messed up reasoning was that "If I can't eat then you shouldn't be able to either!" Oh so very selfish of me.
BUT there is a huge problem looming ahead of me today... It's my friend's birthday and I *have* to go. The last time I went to a birthday party I literally had people shoving cake in my face until I accepted it. I was really mad that day :/ Just let me NOT eat your stupid cake!
However, my intense worry about eating junk food is overshadowed by the fact that I know I will go absolutely ballistic if I am made to break my fast. Seriously. Like go ape-shit. Ughhh no one had better make a fuss!! My roommate is already suspicious again and she's had a tendency to blurt out that I'm not eating and crap >:(
I'm looking forward to Saturday though, I'm going to see Kaskade!!! :D I am sooo excited for it, I still can't decide if I should dress rave-ish or more clubbing? This is even more of a reason why I can't break my fast, if I wear stomach-baring outfits with my friends then I HAVE to be thin and not ugly bulgy like I am usually!! I'm also not sure if I'm going to have the energy to dance the night away since the 96 hour mark will be right in the middle of it :0
Oh and since I'm not feeling *too* weak right now I've decided to forgo the juice fast for today and just stick with water. I know, I'm too flaky for my own good!
I'll be updating this again later on :)
It is 55 hours in and I weigh 100.6 lbs and I am ending the fast.
I slept for around 4 hours on and off until I finally got up around 5 AM because the hunger was too strong. It was a torturous decision to end the fast early and I feel weak for it but... I'm just glad I made a conscious choice rather than binge.
When I woke up I was still 100.8 lbs but I weighed myself every hour after that until I was 100.6 lbs which is only 1 lb away from my low weight. I felt that I at least owed myself this concession in the case that I was going to eat and break the promise that I made to myself and all of you.
I lost a total of 3.2 lbs. That is much more then I could have hoped to lose in the short amount of time that I didn't eat and I need to take this as an accomplishment instead of feeling like a failure.
I'm eating 1 cup Fiber One Cereal (120 cal) now and I'll probably have 1 Amy's Bistro Burger (110 cal) later on in the day. Not sure if I'll eat more than that but I do know that I am NOT going to eat anything at that party! That's the only part of today that I'm completely confident about :)
It's been an exhausting night - I hope everyone else has slept better than I did <3
Posted by not.quite.ana at 12:25 AM