Thursday, December 16, 2010
Tomorrow will mark 10 days to my birthday. I don't weigh anywhere near where I told myself I would but I can deal with that. Well, as long as my thighs don't touch ever again.
I'm not sure what exactly prompted this 'acceptance' of my body ('happy' is certainly not right and even 'content' is pushing it) but I'm relieved that I can eat something as simple as sushi without feeling overwhelming guilt and anger at myself.
My last week or two of posts have been detailing my binges, my attempt at making up for these binges, my plans, my self-doubt and my general insecurity about where I'm headed.
I need to stop worrying about the future and focus on the present, as cliche as that may sound. I don't know if I can do it but I'll try. After all, there are finals to study for, presents to buy and friends to meet.
And now I present Madonna :D
"Die Another Day" - Madonna
I think I'll find another way
There's so much more to know
I guess I'll die another day
It's not my time to go
Posted by not.quite.ana at 8:17 PM